I’m doing something today I’ve never done before. I try to keep things around here as light as possible, but sometimes life isn’t all pancakes and date nights. Well actually life has been a bit too much of those two lately and that’s part of the problem.
It’s hard to claim that I write a healthy living blog if I keep things light on the healthy and more on the living. Not that the two are mutually exclusive, but I’ve definitely let the healthy take a back seat pretty much since my 5k in November.
I’ve never been one of those girls who struggled with my weight, and despite numerous well meaning comments about improving my appearance I’ve never really had an issue with body image. But lately I’ve been having issues. It started small, a pair of pants that were too tight out of the dryer, extra wiggle under the sleeves of a short sleeved dress.
But then the holidays hit. And a couple of crazy cold snaps. And an icky nasty cold. The excuses pile up, the workouts get shorter, and in a few short months I’ve found myself at my heaviest weight since starting college.
As of yesterday (when I stepped on the scale at the school gym) I weigh 135 lbs, about 15 lbs heavier than I started college at and 10 lbs heavier than I was this fall. Now before anyone gets any crazy ideas I know my weight is well with in the average range for my age and height, I know my BMI is on the low end of normal, and I know that as a general rule my body looks pretty good.
I also know that sitting down and eating a pile of pancakes for dessert because I had a long day is not the way to deal with my problems. I know that I would feel healthier and more confident if there was more muscle and less jiggle on my body. I know I am tired of being tired all the time and struggling to get out of bed each day. I know I feel my best when I am active on a regular basis. And I know that I’m doing myself a disservice by working towards anything less.